So I have been struggling with my mindset for the past few weeks. What am I doing with my life? Where am I going? What am I going to be in 20 years? I'm in a state of mental flux and it is showing in my kung fu. I have been constantly distracted and unfocused.
However, this week I'm on a bit of an upswing. Things are a little more settled and I'm more relaxed. I have found the inspiration to drive forward.
I have made a executive decision and invested money in it. This decision is to start my own company. I will not simply be doing electrical work, this idea is a little more specialized. I registered and paid for courses involving solar panel installation. This will be happening at the end of June.
This is a concrete decision. No more humming and hawing about it! This IS what I'm going to do. My mind is set. I need to take care of myself and family and cannot do that if I can't provide. I cannot provide if I am constantly waiting for a phone call saying I have a chance at a job.
I'm scared though, absolutely terrified! What if I can't find any interested customers? What if I can't get the job done as fast as want? What if I get overwhelmed? This is going to be the most daunting task in my life do far. I think it's worth it on several levels to go through with it though. This is the perfect time in my life where I can take a chance like this.
Besides, this goes right along with my desire to help create a greener and sustainable world! I believe that if something is not done now we are dooming ourselves. The amount of natural resources we consume on a daily basis is astonishing and can't be sustained for much longer.
With this decision, my mind is a little more calm. I can start focussing more on my kung fu now!
Wow, that was quite the rant. I would like to extend my thanks to everyone again for your support.
Take care everyone!
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