All change comes at a cost though. This career path does not work on a Monday to Friday, 8-4 schedule. Because of this I will not be present at the school as consistently. I don't know why I didn't think of this factor when deciding to undertake this. An oversight indeed. I am not by any means regretting my decision. I am just torn between the happiness of starting something new and the sadness of spending less time and energy where I want it, in kung fu.
This compounded by the fact that this is my grading year. The year I need to spend MORE time at the kwoon, not less. This reduction in time spent also affect the students and other instructors. I am letting them down.
Even though this all sounds negative, I would not change it for anything. This is a mere reflection of where my path is going and how it will help me become a better person, a better martial artist than I thought. This will all contribute to a successful year. With a relatively unknown schedule, I need to take advantage of every free second I have. No time will be squandered.
You are not letting down your students or other instructors. We all have personal journeys that we must be true to. You are setting an example for how priorities must be set and we all can learn from it. No one is being let down when you are doing things right and for the right reasons.
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