Words

I have never been all that good at conversing. Whether it's face to face, on the phone or through an email, I have always struggled to get my point through. I also usually find it very difficult to go and speak to someone at all. I'm not sure what it might be. Am I not focused? Do I need to read and write more? Or do I just need to calm my mind? I have used this as an excuse for not involving myself in anything worth while. I would usually try to stay in the sidelines, shying away from everyone who even looks at me, afraid they will try to start a conversation with me and I will have nothing to say to them.

This has been changing, thankfully, since I started Kung Fu. More so when I joined the I Ho Chuan team. Everyone seems so charismatic and helpful. Asking how I'm doing when they haven't even met me. This friendly outlook towards other people is starting to influence me. The more time I spend at the Kwoon, the more confidence I gain, and the easier it is for me to speak to others.

I find I go up to speak to people way more often now, and with more intelligent things to say. The change is slow-going though, I still find myself fumbling with words or completely forgetting sentences. There is improvement non-the-less. Like anything in Kung Fu, or life even, it will take a long time with great effort to get better with words, so I will be patient.